Saturday, 24 January 2015

Food Diary 1: Grapefruit, Chicken Salad & Falafel with Quinoa Pitta Bread!

Hi guys!

So I have decided to start documenting my food intake and taking pictures of my food for a new segment that I am adding to my blog called *in deep echoing voice* MY FOOD DIARY! 

People ask me what I eat to lose weight, so I am going to be uploading daily food posts showing you guys what I like to eat daily to trim down and as healthy options!

For breakfast, I usually have fruit, so I decided to have half a grapefruit and a tiny cup of black coffee (It's tiny, about the size of an espresso coffee). If you find grapefruit a bit too bitter, but know about all the health benefits, try sprinkling a tiny amount of sugar on it and putting it under the grill for 2-5 minutes and it may change your life! (Got that tip from Jon, his grandma used to do make it like that for him)

For lunch, I had a very light chicken salad with spinach, lettuce, cherry tomatoes, cucumbers and red onion. It was a fairly small bowl of salad and I thought it wouldn't fill me up, but because I had bulked it out with spinach and lettuce, I actually couldn't finish it. (You get full very quickly once you cut down your intake, and I make sure I don't overeat because when I do, I get sleepy and unproductive AKA "The 'itis") The dressing is a french vinaigrette dressing that Jon makes, I may get him to write up the recipe for that if anyone is interested! This was a very tasty salad, the vinaigrette made this a 10/10 because we all know how bland salad can be without a good dressing, so the kick from the vinegar and the chopped garlic added some real good flavour!

 And for dinner, I had a quinoa & falafel stuffed pitta bread with a salad. The salad had spinach, carrots, red onion, cherry tomatoes, cabbage and lettuce in it, with about 10 cubes of low-fat feta cheese (From Tesco, very small cubes) and a sprinkle of black pepper. I couldn't finish it because it filled me up very quickly, probably due to the carbs and the fibre from the wholegrain pitta bread. It was really tasty, but because I didn't want a dressing on it, it was a bit dry? Dressing is optional, but I just decided to go without. Maybe next time, I'll try a lemon and herb dressing with it.

So yeah! That's the food that I ate. I did have snacks during the day, but they were just fruit and I drank water throughout the day (which I kinda hated because I am a fan of fruit juices but not a fan of what they do, especially if they're not pure fruit juices).

Like I said, if anyone is interested in wanting to know recipes, just let me know and I will either incorporate them into these daily food posts, or get Jon write them up on his blog which he is starting fairly soon!

Thanks for reading guys, I hope you enjoyed this post!
Until next time,

Fen x

Saturday, 20 December 2014

Tales From The Earth 'An Abundance of Happiness' bangle*

Hiya guys!

Long time no blog! I know, this year has been entirely hectic. I finally completed my degree and - well, if you would like to know what else I've been getting up to, pop over to my Youtube channel and have a butchers at that!

Back to the point! So recently I was contacted by a company called Tales from the Earth. Now, Tales from the Earth, is a company that makes jewellery for special occasions and special people. If you browse the website you'll quickly realise what I mean. From bangles with little messages that are engraved on the inside as a secret little motivator, to keepsakes and christening necklaces, TFTE have thought of all the social occasions; and have catered for them.

I actually stumbled across the website before they contacted me, and saw their secret message bangles. I had just graduated the day before and my parents were racking their brains to think of a nice little present that will act as a memorable piece, and an almost reward for graduating. I saw the 'An Abundance of Happiness' bracelet and instantly fell in love, and actually tweeted that I wanted this from my parents as a present, so you can imagine my excitement when I was contacted by Tales from the Earth, asking me if I would like to dedicate a blog post to the jewellery.

 When it came in the post, it came in a lovely little tiffany blue coloured box with 'Tales frm the earth' pressed onto it in gold. I instantly thought "This packaging is awesome, it would make an amazing gift".
THEN I openeded the box.

 The way everything was packaged was immaculate. I loved everythng from the little gold pull string bag, from the light grey ribbon that was delicately tied across the top holding the jewellery and the little card on top, in place.

Now usually, when I get presents, I don't want to read the manual, I just want to open the present, normal right? Well with this, I actually took the time to read the little card! SHOCK HORROR!
When contacted by the company, they asked me which bangle I would like. Of course I chose the 'An abundance of happiness' one because thats what I felt was relevant to me, but there was an array of choices, from an 'always with you' bangle to an 'an ocean of love' bangle. You just pick what message you think you would like, or if giving it for a gift, what message you think the recipient of the gift would like.

The tiny card read has a little message that I thought was so cute and sweet. It's one of those pieces for me where it tells me that everything gets better. If you guys have been following my blog for some time now, you would know that I suffer from depression and recently things have not been going how I would have liked them to, you know the usual thing. I needed something that would make me smile and make me remember that things do get better, and I feel like this is perfect for me. I know, it's a bracelet, but the message is something very close to my heart, something that I look at when I feel under the weather and it reassures me that I was once happy, and will get back to that but I must have hope.

Oh and did I mention, the bracelet has a tiny message engraved on the inside? It brushes past your wrist a thousand times a day as the tiny card reads.

I thought as well as this being a special occasion bracelet and a keepsake, it would also be a great Christmas present. My family have a tradition of doing Christmas and New Year presents and as the youngest of 13 kids, this is an absolutely perfect tradition! Double the presents!
Even better is the fact that they're still sending them out!

Last orders placed before 2pm on the 23rd of December will be delivered before Christmas, so for you people like me that slack at Christmas time, it is perfect!

PRICE: These bracelets are £45 with free delivery within the UK. For a bracelet, I think that it's a quiet good price. It'll last for years and years.
Quality: They are very sturdy. They're rhodium-plated and 6.5 diameter x .9cm width. They fit my wrist and I don't have the skinniest of wrists, believe me. 

So overall, I think this bracelet would make an amazing present for Christmas or any other occasion. With their sweet messages that can brighten a day, I think everyone should have one of these. Not only would they make an amazing present, I think just buying one for yourself as a little reminder that things get better and to move on, is an awesome motivator for people like me that need a little push sometimes.

I loved it to much, I bought one for my boyfriend's mum as a Christmas gift, as I thought it would be something she would love also!

Thanks for reading guys, until next time!

Fen x

Thursday, 23 January 2014

PERSONAL POST: Depression and loss...

Hello girls!

Long time no speak! It has been extremely long since I last blogged and I do apologise for that. Life has been extremely hectic and I do feel as if I owe you an explanation and an apology for my MIA-ness... if that's a word?

So as some of you may know, my uncle died late August. He was my mum's sister's husband and he was such a lovely guy and was always smiling and happy. He would always make me laugh and always had the charm and humour to make you forget about your sad times and focus on happier times. He was an amazing guy, and it was such a sad shock when he passed.
Obviously, this was a very sad time for my family, there was a lot of grieving and sadness in my household and I just didn't feel like doing anything, especially blogging. My parents left for Ghana for his funeral and I stayed here because I was due to go back to university to start my final year in 2 weeks.

About a month after my uncle died, I was in my university house with my boyfriend, and I got a call from my sister Christabel. Now, me and Christabel didn't really talk on the phone. Hell, we didn't really talk at all. We didn't really... get along? When I was younger, she never really played with me, she was very grown up and mature and didn't really like interacting with me. I would ask her to just do something with me and she never would. She was quite mean to me. My sister Abigail, was my favourite sister. She always played with me, she always wanted to do things with me. She would take me to the arcade and the cinema and she was just the best, but Christabel, just hated me. Well that's how it seemed at the time anyway. So anyway, Christabel called me and sounded really sad. She asked me if I was ok, and told me to sit down. I immediately felt my heart start to race because I was so scared. I mean, when someone tells you to sit down, it is most certainly always bad news, right?

I screamed at her and was like "IS IT MUM?!" because my mum was in Ghana and I was just scared something would have happened to her. My sister said no, that my mum and dad were fine. She fought back tears and told me that my mum's sister who I know as aunty Grace, had died.

Now, at this point, so many thoughts were running through my mind, but the only word that I managed to utter was "How?". It wasn't a "how" as in asking how she died, but more as in a "how the hell is this possible?" my uncle, her husband had died A MONTH before her. She wasn't sick, she was fine! Nobody understood what was happening/what had happened and it just threw my family into a cycle of sadness pain all over again. I burst into tears and Arran ran over to me and hugged me and told me everything would be ok. I don't think I ever thanked him for being there for me. If he wasn't there I honestly do not know what I would have done.

Anyway, my aunt and uncle had a son called Fred, who obviously is my cousin and for him to lose his dad and his mum is less than 2 months, must have been the greatest pain of all. I asked my sister "DOES JUNIOR (a name we call him) KNOW?!" and she said yes, he knew. What was crazy about it all is that he had come back from Ghana from attending his dad's funeral A DAY before his mum died. It was so heartbreaking thinking about all the pain he must have been in, I just couldn't understand how it was all happening to my family so sudden... No one was prepared for this.

I wanted to call my mum to ask her if she was ok, but I don't think I could have handled hearing my mum cry down the phone. I knew she wasn't ok, but I am one of the most awkward people when it comes to sympathising with people. When my mum cried, I actually feel like my heart is breaking, and I literally feel pain in my heart. I didn't want to call her. I guess you could say it was selfish, but I was just so scared. I don't know why but for my own sake, I just couldn't call her.

That day, I spiralled out of control eating wise. I ate everything I laid my eyes upon (that was edible). That was just my way of coping with things. I would eat and cry and eat and cry and eat and cry and I would just feel sorry for myself all day and I just let myself go for about a week.
I'm one of those people that comes off strong and independent, but I am probably one of the weakest most vulnerable people you could come across. I always try to protect others and shield them from danger,  when in reality I need protecting. I've always been like that. I think it was because I was always the fat one. The fat one that was bigger than all her friends, so when something would happen, I would be the one called because I could take that person down and this moves me onto another part of this update; my weight loss.

A lot of people had been asking me how I had lost weight and what I had been doing. I don't want to make this blog post too long, so I have been drafting a post specifically on that matter that I will post very soon. It will have ALL the details and pictures and what not, so make sure to look out for that.

So, I fell into a spell of depression after my aunt died. She was by far my favourite aunt. She was my mum's youngest sister and she was the most generous woman you would ever come across. When she came to London to visit us, she would always bring me and my other sisters presents and treats. She always bought me a pair of real gold earrings. She helped shape me into the girl I am now. She's the reason as to why I love jewellery so much, because when I was 12 she took me to Ernest Jones and bought me so much, it was insane.

When she came to visit when I was 17, I was in the process of stretching my right ear. Everyone in the house was like "Oh shit Fen, aunty Grace is coming, look at your bloody ear!" and I was literally panicking. I was so worried she'd be disappointed and that she'd think her present of earrings would have gone to waste. I changed my hair so many times so it would cover my ear, but at this point I had stretched my ear to 18mm, so there was not going back, plus, it was HUGE. She saw it and was shocked, but laughed it off. She gave me £40 and kind of begged me to buy a nicer but smaller tunnel. Her exact words were "At least get ones with diamonds in it or something".

She was just the most lovely woman.

Some time after she died, I was in my uni house and I was thinking. I was over-thinking. A lot was going on with me and I just felt like shit and I didn't want to do anything or see anyone. I started crying and I didn't even know why. I just couldn't stop. I got out all of my pills and decided that I was going to end it all. I sent texts to everyone and explained why I was doing it, and said I'd miss them.

I sent a text to my sister Christabel, saying I'm sorry I couldn't have been a better little sister to her and I'm sorry for whatever I had done that made her hate me when I was younger. I also said sorry for not being a good aunty to her 3 month old baby girl Lanah, and that I hoped she would tell her about me when she was older. I was so ready to go. I'd had enough of everything. This was it.

I locked myself in my room and turned my phone and my lights off. One of my housemates called the police and the ambulance while I was writing a lengthy letter to my parents apologising for what I was about to do. The came in the house and they forced me to open my door, if not they'd have to break it down. I opened it and I just sobbed. I sobbed to this police officer for about 2 hours and I saw him wipe a tear away from his eye at one point. He told me to turn my phone on, so I did, and I had gotten about 60 missed called from people and just countless texts.

I got a call from Christabel and she was sobbing. I have never seen her show so much emotion in my life. She's usually such a stone-faced girl who was very blunt and told it like it was. She was crying so much I couldn't understand what she was saying. I said sorry and I don't even know why. I just couldn't stop apologising.

 After the police left, they told my housemates to look after me. My sister's boyfriend and my other sister's husband were coming pick me up from Coventry to take me home.

My best friend of 5 years Victoria called me and was crying and was angry that I didn't tell her how I was feeling. At this time, her and I were not talking much. We would talk, but something had happened during summer that left us a little distant. I explained everything to her, and we just sobbed. She has always known how to cheer me up, so before long I was laughing at something stupid she had said and I was for that moment, happy.

Now, I am much happier, but I do still have my bouts of depression. I was diagnosed with  BPD when I was like 18, so I knew it may have had something to do with that. I feel so much happier within myself, and it's sad to think that I could have just ended everything that night. I have so much to live for. My graduation, getting married, seeing my nieces and nephews grow up, having kids of my own. I was going to throw that all away because I'd had enough. You don't just have enough of life. You have to stick it out. For every bad, there's something good, right?

I'm still kinda waiting on that good thing to happen, but it will happen, I know it will. Who knows, it could have happened already, but I just haven't realised it yet.

Sorry this has been so long, but I thought I would finally share with you guys what's been going on in my world. This will probably come as a shock to a lot of you guys, because I'm always the funny, loud annoying one with a lot to say, but I get sad too. If you ever ever feel like it's the end, honestly, it's not. You can email me and we can talk about stuff, if you want to. It's never the end when you want it to be. is my email address.

I hope I have shed some light on my struggle with depression and loss and I hope you all forgive me for being away and not blogging. I will get back into my game very soon!

Thanks for reading, guys!

Fen xoxo

Wednesday, 25 September 2013

Little Mix by COLLECTION launch event!

Hello girls!

Long time, no blog post! Ok that was a little corny, but hi guys! It's nice to see you again. I have been away for a long time and I know you've all missed me ever so much, (obviously) but now I am back to talk to you about an exciting event I attended tonight! WARNING: A LOT OF PICTURES!
So I was invited to go to the launch of the UK foursome Little Mix's brand new make-up launch with COLLECTION (previously COLLECTION 2000) and I just jumped at the opportunity. If you don't know, Little Mix were the winners of X-Factor in 2010, when 1D and Cher Lloyd were also competitors, so obviously by that, you can tell that they are are well loved girl band.
Anyway, the event was hosted in the lovely Mayfair Hotel which was lovely and snazzy. I got lost and ended up being about fifteen minutes late, but what's different there? When I finally buckled up the courage to ask someone where the place was, I was told that I was standing right in front of it; and had been for the last 5 minutes, so as you can tell, I was clearly not in the right frame of mind in that moment.
I entered the hotel, and was greeted by this guy who told me that the event was being held downstairs. I got downstairs and I saw a lot of, how do I put this, OLDER people in ball gowns and tuxedos and began panicking. I thought I was to underdressed and almost had a nervous breakdown there and then. After a minute of comtemplating whether to go in or not, I decided that I must go back upstairs and ask someone else where the event is being held. I was told that it was indeed being held UPSTAIRS. I praised the lord, and began walking up the stairs, giving evils to the a**hole that told me it was downstairs.
So when I finally got to room where the event was being hosted, I was bombarded with champagne:
Cupcakes, free cocktails, canape's and fish and chips. YES. FISH AND CHIPS.
I was thrilled, as I always am with free food and tons of it. After saying hello to some familiar faces, and a couple of drinks, I decided to take a walk around the room before Little Mix made their appearance on the stage. Oh did I forget to mention? THEY WERE GOING TO BE AT THE EVENT!
As I walked around, there were several bits and pieces of the collection around. I swatched basically everything on the back of my hand like I was in Superdrug and was so impressed by the quality of the lipsticks, especially.
After having a little nose about, the girls came out and answered some questions about their range and spoke to us for a bit, then people lined up to go and get their photos taken with the girls. I took that opportunity to have a closer look at the range and try to determine whose I liked best.

Each girl has their own range that includes:
A mascara
An eyeliner
A lipstick
A nail polish
A lip gloss
A blusher or bronzer
A dazzle eyeshadow
An eyeshadow trio
 The cupcake that I shouldn't have eaten because I'm on a diet, but ate anyway because I couldn't resist.

You can see a few of the items on the table there. I swatched them and fiddled around with the bits and pieces, and I must say, the quality of the bronzers and eyeshadows were amazing. The bronzer almost felt like a fluffy mousse, but was a powder and it blended so well into the back of my hand.
 The little make-up artist corner!

 An in-venue make-up artist! You could go to her to get your face all done up while at the event which was awesome!

 The girls finally came out and were looking gorgeous! Sorry for he crappy photos of them, there were so many tall people in front of me, I wanted to cry, but I managed to get some shots of them!

 They were talking about their excitement of launching a range and they were all so sweet. So genuine! The girls spoke about which products were their favourites and shared with us the process of picking what would be in the range and who would have what. They all wanted that signature red lip, and a clear lip gloss so they made them group items, so they don't belong to one person's range!

It was mahoosive, guys I couldn't stop staring at it.

 They're so lovely, so down to earth, it was crazy just seeing how lovely and well... normal they were.

 The delicious cupcakes that I just wanted to smuggle home.

 A cushion that I so badly wanted to steal, but couldn't because it was too big HINT HINT PEGASUS, I WANT ONE *winks at Harriet*

So I had a good look at each girl's collection and tried to pick which one I liked the most, and I honestly could not pick. I liked Perrie's lipstick, but also liked Jesy's bright nail polish and Leigh-Anne's clear Mascara and Jade's eyeshadow quad. It was hard to pick one girl's collection because there was so much variation.

The items in the range go from £1.99 to £3.19, so it all very very cheap but very good quality. I'm actually shocked at how good the quality is of the range.
I was given a lovely goody-bag with items from each of the girls' ranges and a blog post about that will be up early tomorrow morning. I loved the event, it was so nice and had such a lovely feel to it. So many kind lovely people and so much food *starry eyed*.

The range launches tomorrow and will be available to buy in Superdrug!

Oh and a quick cheeky tip, Perrie's lipstick is pretty much a dupe for Up The Amp by MAC, but at a fraction of the price, at £2.99 rather than £15.00! (Image above MAC on the right)You cannot go wrong! Definitely go check it out!

Keep a look out for a full review tomorrow of the items I recieved in my goody-bag!

Take care girls, and thanks for reading,

Fen xxx

Thursday, 1 August 2013

Feminine Hygiene - Do it right!

Hello again girls,

So I understand that this post may cause a lot of raised eyebrows, but I thought that it would be a good idea to do a post on this topic, as it is very important for girls and women, especially in this ungodly heat we have been experiencing in the UK.

As the last born in a family of 9 sisters, I was taught a lot about feminine hygiene when I was younger, but I understand that not everyone has nine sisters and not everyone is clued up on feminine hygiene. When I say feminine hygiene, I mean keeping your private parts clean, free of infection and any weird smells.

I just want to say this right now, I am not a camp gyno* or a doctor, I am just speaking as a girl who thinks it is important to keep your private areas clean and someone that wants to help younger girls who  maybe don't have a female figure in their lives and are too nervous to ask their father about what to do down there.

*This is camp gyno. She is hilarious.
There is going to a time in every girl's life where they feel "unclean" down there. This time for me, is usually during and just after my period. I feel gross, sticky, icky, paranoid, every word you could ever associate with being uncomfortable and it usually gets me down as no one likes feeling like that.

Dont' think you're a freak if you sometimes feel gross or yuck down there, as a lot of people do. Just because people don't talk about it, doesn't mean it isn't something a lot of people experience. You just need to take more care and pay more attention to keeping the area clean and fresh.

It's important to keep your vagina area clean and free of any "fishy" smells, because that smell is very distinctive, and if you can smell it, people around you can smell it also, and it is quite embarrassing.

Here are some things that can help you feel and be fresh down there:

1. Spend more time washing the area. Don't be ashamed to use your fingers or to squat down and give the area a good thorough clean.

2. Use a PH balanced soap/shower gel for example Femfresh - Usually shower gels and soaps that you use to wash your entire body are not good for washing your vagina as they are not Ph balanced, and may cause stinging, redness, irritation and may cause a "fishy" smell.

This product is soap free and hypoallergenic. 
Suitable for everyday! It's £1.64 in Boots!

3. Make sure you rinse the soap out very well. If you don't, you'll smell.

3a. Dry the area very well.

4. Keep the general area neat. I'm not saying shave it all off and be bald down there, but excessive hair may mean that you cannot reach the area well enough to clean, so maybe trim the hair down every so often.

5. Get a vagina deodorant. If you're worried about the smell, there are products you can buy that act as a "vagina deodorant". Femfresh do one, actually. It's £1.32 and it's a spray aerosol.

I got this one from Morrisons, it's a spray deodorant.
6. If you still feel uncomfortable and still have that smell down there, then you should probably consult your doctor or GP. It could be something else, but it may not be serious, so don't get scared to go and have a qualified person check you out. It could stop a big problem in the long run!

The Femfresh products I have shown in this blog post are available in your drug stores, such as Superdrug and Boots, but supermarkets also stock them. I got these from Morrisons on special offer.

So this post was short, but I hope it helped you (if you have any problems with your private area) or someone else. There is always such a massive stigma when it comes to talking about feminine hygiene, but if you don't learn when you're younger, it makes it difficult to become important to you when you're older.

I hope you found this post informative and feel free to share it with people! If you have anything to ask me about this post, feel free to email me on

Thanks for reading, gals!

Fen xxx

Just want to say that I have not been paid for this post, Femfresh probably don't even know that I exist!

Wednesday, 31 July 2013

Witch Mattifying Moisturiser* review!

Hey girls!

This blog post is for us girls with combination or oily skin that find it really difficult to keep our shine under control (Don't let anyone dim your sparkle though, give in to the sparkle motion) which makes our foreheads look like an oil slick and that is not always a good look, especially in this summer season.

I have a very oily t-zone, and often find that when I do get spots, I only get them in my forehead region, and that sucks because it's like the biggest part of my face. I always sweat on my nose and my forehead and find myself having to use tissue or oil absorbing sheets to pat my face down on the forehead and nose, and sometimes it gets quite embarrassing as it often looks like I have been running, when I have in fact just been walking at a pace of about 0.7 miles per hour. 

So when I was given* the new mattifying moisturiser by Witch, I jumped at the chance to try it out, as I have always wanted to fine something that can keep the shine in control and if so, just eliminate it completely. 

Zoomed out photo
My sister used to use Witch products when she was younger, and swore by it for a very long time, but I was very cautious about using their products as it has Witch hazel in it, and I just wasn't very sure about it, but when I tried it out the first time, I really really enjoyed their products.

So this product claims to "harness the natural goodness of witch hazel in a balancing formula that delivers 24 hour hydration, ideal for oily and combination skin". 
It promises:
- 24 hour hydration
-Balanced and mattified complexion
-UVA and UVB protection with SPF15, protecting skin from the suns daily damaging rays and free radicals (which is perfect for the weather we have been having across the UK the last few weeks)
-Dermatologically tested for oily and combination skin.

Zoomed-in photo. Sassy.
So lets compare what it claims to do, to what it really does, shall we?

Good factors:

  • I tried it out on my face very soon after I got it, it applied like a very silky primer. 
  • It had a matte finish, but a moisturising matte, it wasn't completely drying and your face didn't feel like it was about to shatter into tiny pieces. 
  • It got most of my shine under control.
  • It is very delicately scented and smells very fresh and pure, almost.
  • It's not greasy, at all. 
  • It makes your face feel like velvet.
  • It's a cheaper alternative to a primer and does pretty much the same thing as one of my favourite primers, GOSH silk skin that retails for £12.99, as well as hydrating your skin.
I have applied the moisturiser and rubbed it into my skin, already in the photo above. FLAWLESS.
Bad factors:
  • A lot of people get weird skin reactions to witch hazel, so if you're one of those people, as good as this product sounds, you probably shouldn't use it. I DID WARN YOU.
  • Although it does help fight shine, it does not do it 100% which is obvious, so don't expect to use this and for your face to have no shine whatsoever. You will still shine a tiny bit, but it is a natural shine that will make your skin look so natural and healthy. 
I think this product is really good for it's price £4.99. It is a very good make-up base and is very cost effective.

If you have tried it before, let me know what you think! Also, what primers have you been using recently that you recommend?

Thanks for reading gals,

Fen xxx

*Although I was given this product, my review is 100% honest and truthful. You guys know I wouldn't lie! Look at my videos!